Thursday, August 28, 2003 3:18 AM Wednesday, August 27, 2003 2:38 PM Wednesday, August 27, 2003 12:44 PM
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
I'm trying to be an artist. I think that not sleeping is artistic. I'm going to stop sleeping. It's weird when you are so tired that things become distant and you have to fight to stay awake. You'd think that 7 hours of sleep is enough.
I'd like people to wonder about me, like, "Who is that Tony Zapien character." That's pretty artistic. But I write about everything that happens to me on this website so everyone knows about me. I'm not mysterious at all.
I wish I was a ninja. I could be one you don't know.
I appreciate people who listen to good music.
Driving when your tired can be as severe as driving while drunk. I think that's weird. Sometimes.
And the construction downtown is really annoying.
And I feel like I'm not expressing myself correctly.
I feel like the future isn't bright like it seemed like it was a few weeks ago.
I hate the future.
...all i want is someones hands to hold.
(this was art)
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
I'm listening to music in my room, and Underoath - When the Sun Sleeps came on, so I felt the urge to turn the music up really loud and jump around my room and pretend to be the singer. And on my first leap into the air, I came down right onto a tack that was laying on the floor. And the tack went all the way into my toe! Like, it was all the way in my toe oK? And I pulled it out and all this blood shot out of my toe. And it hurts really bad but all I can do is laugh about it.
Sweet song of the moment: emo
Posted By: Tony Z
All my friends are emo right now, myself somewhat included. Especially Kasey, and I made him a CD with all emo songs on it. So life basically sucks for everyone I'm friends with right now. Except for Lauren and Ryan who are both at a week long music festival. Damn everyone.
Tuesday, August 26, 2003 3:08 PM Tuesday, August 26, 2003 2:36 AM
Sweet song of the moment: morbid infatuation pregnancies
Posted By: Tony Z
solid left wings turn staples into steak
a pole in the ground makes a simple mistake
death in the family, one time mom
someone's left the house and they left the light on
fed a spoonful of worms and amounts of dried beans
taken from a spout a basket full of chicken wings
purple plastic paper and a siamese cat
i didnt know that mommy lived alone and smoked crack
Sweet song of the moment: medley of superior saltine leaves
Posted By: Tony Z
Today I had a prophetic vision. And it came true.
I don't remember, but I think it was when I was laying on my floor. I woke up early today so around 4 I was kinda tired and I layed down. As I was laying there, too awake to dream, to tired to think. I started visualising things. What I saw was a clock that said it was 9pm, I was in McDonalds working, and someone came in to the store with a gun, they walked into view of me and shot me straight into the chest. I was bleeding and fell to the ground, then immediately following this a girl came up to me and kissed me on the lips.
then i snapped out of it.
I knew that the whole thing was metaphorical, that I wasn't really going to get shot. And I thought about it a lot before I went to work, what it could actually mean. And then when the prophecy came true later in the night, I suppose I found out.
What it meant is...
I'm from fucking space, bitch. Now stop reading my journal and mind your own business.
here's a picture of my guitar:
Monday, August 25, 2003 2:14 AM Saturday, August 23, 2003 2:32 PM
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
When i was younger I used to get bloody noses all the time, from as far back as I can remember until about 7th grade, I could basically call when my nose was going to bleed. About every 3 months I'd get a good one. And they'd just start for no reason at all. Then in 8th grade they started to come less and in 9th grade they stopped all together, and I hlf b't had a nosebleed since then. Until about 2 months ago. I've had probably 7-10 nosebleeds in the past 2 months. Including the one I just had about 5 minutes ago. No, I haven't been snorting any drugs. So i'm pretty sure I'm going to die soon. And that really sucks.
Kasey's really emo about issues with Becki right now. And i'm really emo just because thats what I am all the time. Ha!
work is stupid. cameras in work are stupid too. black hair dye that turns your hair purple is stupid. nosebleeds are stupid. being sick during the summer is stupid. the internet is stupid. ferndale construction is stupid. not living in seattle is stupid. writing lyrics is stupid. headaches are stupid. noises outside are stupid. liking girls is stupid. junk email is stupid. booked tattoo shops is stupid. this is stupid.
goodbye
Sweet song of the moment: leaving
Posted By: Tony Z
The show was last night it was pretty sweet. Check out the Thineu site for pics and video (thineu.com). We played decently but there wasn't a whole lot of people there.
Friday, August 22, 2003 11:26 AM Thursday, August 21, 2003 12:48 PM Tuesday, August 19, 2003 1:14 AM Thursday, August 14, 2003 3:24 AM Wednesday, August 13, 2003 3:16 PM Monday, August 11, 2003 1:33 AM Friday, August 8, 2003 3:12 AM Wednesday, August 6, 2003 12:35 AM
Sweet song of the moment: roundabout 4
Posted By: Tony Z
This post is about Aimee Schulte, she is my best friend and I love her.
Sweet song of the moment: october is the worst month.
Posted By: Tony Z
Well, the very first NEW Thineu show is tomorrow. And my guitar has nothing to wear. I can't think of what to put on it but hopefully i'll think of something soon. I'm pretty excited for the show, hopefully we don't suck too much. Amanda says I have too good of a voice to scream all the time.
Sweet song of the moment: Alien Trajectory Theory
Posted By: Tony Z
today for some reason i was upset at work even though i had no reason to be and when your like that it sucks. I think maybe it was because before i went to work i listened to a cover of the weezer song say it aint so performed by chris carabba era further seems forever, and thats enough to turn any person emo.
but at any rate, i have duct tape and a sharpie and according to the guy in line in front of me it looks like i'm going to be taking care of a drunk person tonight, but in reality im just going to work on my guitar.
the very first thineu show is coming up this friday. i'm superly duper excited. we've been practicing a lot and so hopefully we wont suck even though kasey will probably get drunk while we're playing and he'll suck haha. that will be funny though. but anyway im excited to play and show all the people who remember old thineu that new thineu doesnt suck.
i have a new friend and her name is shannon and she's coming to the show so thats pretty sweet.
everyone in ferndale thinks that i look punk even when i dont really look all that punk. that's ok though because i'm punk as fuck. whateva though. i'm going to see a super emo band tomorrow called yellowcard. fun.
bye
Sweet song of the moment: milk, massachusettes, murder
Posted By: Tony Z
...even though I plan on moving to Seattle soon, I could come up every weekend and hang out...
Waiting till September sucks, and that's for more then 1 reason...
yet,
I'd like to stay here forever.
All I want is my digital camera back. Airborne express are F'ers.
nude photography.
$$ equals.
This post is like a poem.
a poem of my life as it stands currently.
naked girl body with crazy bat wings and lips for a head with fangs, thats my next tattoo. and maybe i'll throw in a pink heart.
i freakin love my band, but i need to write lyrics...
sucks that i'm not emo anymore, that's when those good lyrics flowed.
thanks emily for the inspiration. being emo sucks though so i'm glad im not anymore.
some girls at the mall came up to me and kasey and grant last week and said "i like punk can i take your picture" and it was funny because we didn't look 'punk' at all i looked gay. thats all bye.
Sweet song of the moment: A new baby
Posted By: Tony Z
I have to wait until September to get more tattoos! Darn this.
Sweet song of the moment: Cold - Stupid Girl
Posted By: Tony Z
Tonight is the last night of the weekend of fun. Im laying in the bed at Beckis right now, me and Kasey have to wake up early so we can ride the greyhound back to ferngully. Were playing a show in 2 weeks so we have to get good soon. Damn.
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
The future was looking bright, but today the light definately dimmed. But I'm not going to worry about it because I have my lucky blue orb still...
Abort Mission?
.negative
Sweet song of the moment: Alkaline Trio - Clavicle
Posted By: Tony Z
I lost my lucky blue orb today and a satanic cat is attacking me right now as well. But it's ok, I saw the number 333, 3 times in 3 minutes today. So whats up with that?
I wish everyday was yesterday truck.
I have a new obsession it's called tattoos and I think it might overtake me.
Tuesday, August 5, 2003 2:08 AM Monday, August 4, 2003 3:09 PM
Sweet song of the moment: Against Me! - Baby, I'm an Anarchist!
Posted By: Tony Z
Yesterday I found a lucky blue orb and ever since then good luck has been coming my way! Today was a super day!
It all started today when a huge beast came to the marketplace. We didn't have enough people to fight it, but then the princess came and she helped us.
What am i talking about...
...i was going to write more but I got bored sorry.
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
Things are looking bright?
Seattle has perfect light and perfect temperature. I did 18 year old things this weekend... got some tattoos, went to porn shops and smoked a cigar. I feel cool.
Space is nice.
I like ice.
goodbye.