Sunday, June 29, 2003 8:58 PM Saturday, June 28, 2003 2:04 PM Friday, June 27, 2003 10:43 AM Wednesday, June 25, 2003 1:06 AM Tuesday, June 24, 2003 3:28 PM
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
I'm really sick, and I just want to feel better. And I was asleep pretty much all day, and I was trying to sleep more still, but I can't stop thinking about this girl, and I had a dream about her. So I need something else to do besides sleep. And i'm not really tired anymore anyway. I just want to not be sick. And I want my camera to work.
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
Were on a ferry right now headead back to seattle. Kasey hates EVERYONE today and i feel like shit. Kasey is all the way scared of the boat.
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
This update is all the way with a phone. I own the world and have no use for computers.
Sweet song of the moment: Against Me! - The Politics of Starving
Posted By: Tony Z
sitting alone with no real intention, my blood is cold and the knife is so warm. i need something to make me feel whole again. you stole a peice of me and no matter how hard i try to forget it's gone, in the back of my mind i know it's you. you theif you stole my insides. i'm going to dye my hair blonde so we can match. maybe someday when it's too late you'll realize how much i loved you. someday when i'm no longer around because you pushed me with your blind rejection. i know i shouldnt blame you for this. i should blame the drugs, but i can't help myself because you've known all along. remember those days when things were so simple. when it was just you and me on the couch alone, with my arms around you and our faces cheek to cheek. will we ever see those days again. i can't help but think it's all over. i'm 17 and you're 16 and maybe someday we'll get married. i'll leave a note in your locker at school tomorrow... don't forget the misquito repellant.
Sweet song of the moment: Albert React - Even
Posted By: Tony Z
im super emo but not sad emo, good emo. it's sweet and i like ice cream. my name is tony and i'm always a lot confused.
Tuesday, June 24, 2003 1:17 AM Monday, June 23, 2003 10:01 AM Monday, June 23, 2003 12:59 AM Sunday, June 22, 2003 12:35 AM
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
I don't play sports, I don't skateboard, I don't dance, I don't like reading, I don't jog, I don't lift weights, I don't like coffeehouses, I don't eat often, I don't swim, I don't drink beer, I don't go to church, I don't have sex, I don't watch tv, I don't do drugs, I don't like people, I don't travel, I don't go to school.
I'd write a song but I have nothing to write about.
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
i like college ruled notebook paper and
i like bubbles
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
you wanna make out sometime? the world is beautiful.
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
I'm still really dizzy from the spinny thing. fuck the spinny thing it ruined my life forever.
Friday, June 20, 2003 11:18 PM Friday, June 20, 2003 1:04 AM Thursday, June 19, 2003 1:40 AM Wednesday, June 18, 2003 1:14 PM Wednesday, June 18, 2003 12:59 AM Tuesday, June 17, 2003 1:00 AM Monday, June 16, 2003 12:08 PM Monday, June 16, 2003 1:59 AM Friday, June 13, 2003 12:23 AM Thursday, June 12, 2003 12:46 AM Tuesday, June 10, 2003 2:01 AM Monday, June 9, 2003 12:46 AM Sunday, June 8, 2003 12:57 AM
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
It's time to end all this nonsense and cut right to the chase. We've known each other for 10 years now and I feel that if we can't be honest to each other about our feelings then who do we have? You don't know beauty until you've seen it. I think you should know i've yet to see it in you. Miss.
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
Holy shit girlfriend. It's 2 in the mornin' and I just had a sexual relationship with your best friend. And secondly she told me some things about you that you wouldn't be excited to know I heard. I hope it feels good being the underdog. You'll never be successful dear.
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
the measly smell of your perfume won't steal me this time. i know your tricks and i know your methods. you had me once and beat me until i couldnt move and i'll never let that happen again. unless you tell me you love me once...
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
you should come over and we can fuck
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
sometimes i feel uneasy inside. like when your eyes burn like a untamed tiger. i knew you once but you settled down. faceless, amidst a minor perfection. we felt like we could be one. in the end only sorrow rises.
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
I FEEL LIKE A DISEASE. AND DAMMIT ITS OK IF YOU HAVE SMALL BOOBS.
Sweet song of the moment: Skycamefalling - The Nothing
Posted By: Tony Z
this song is really good.
the pictures are up check the picture gallery page 7
Sweet song of the moment: Slayer!!!
Posted By: Tony Z
On Friday Lauren and I took a plane to seattle and at the Bellingham airport there is the most beautiful in the world so I came up with the idea of going to the airport all the time and buying plane tickets so i can talk to her but i dont have money for that so i'm not going to. Anyway we got to seattle in like a half hour it was soo sweet no one flies to Seattle!
That night we discovered the freakin magic circle in the park next to the market downtown and it's freakin incane i tell you. INCANE!
On Saturday was Becki's graduation party which was fairly sweet we hung out there and had a crazy slip n slide which was fun. Then later on Kasey and I strolled over to the local grocery store and he bought some Sparks drinks. So we all went downtown and me and Kasey were sparked it was bomb. We got lots of people to take pictures with us and grab their crotches. It was sweet and then later we went to denny's. Uhh thats basically it but it was a freakin fun weekend anyway. The moral of this weekend is that I hate Ferndale and freakin love Seattle and I wish I lived there now.
Six Found Dead has been renamed back to Thineu.
lyrics of the weekend
You know she doesn't matter so don't act so coy
She's starving for you did you even notice what you took
ps. hi lynn
Sweet song of the moment: Yellowcard! - Rough Draft
Posted By: Tony Z
If someone was taking stats for my whole life, another zero in the love life spot would be marked in again today...but maybe I'd score a point or two in being badass!?
It's Friday the 13th, and I'm taking a PLANE to Seattle. It was nice knowing you.
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
today's going to be a bad day...
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
All you little bitches representin' the 808 better step up cuz I know you be jockin my nizzuts. Don't even ack like you like me cuz I know you ain't. My name is Tony to the Izzo Zapien bitch so don't even mess. If you got beef? Just flat out say it homes. I don't need to sit around in this hizzouse thinking maybe you my dogg when you aint even feelin' me ya feel me? Now don't front like you fuckin' own tha block dogg, holla back if you down. Don't block me, balla, I ain't even tryina play ya. Shit homes, I been down wit ya'll for since I can remember, maybe ya'll didn't notice cuz for a while I be rollin' wit a different crew, but ya'll didn't even invite me to come chill ya dig? Shit man, I thought ya'll wasn't even down wit tha Big Baller then. So I was like aight it's all good but it all wasn't good ya dig? So now, I been outta da old crew for like 'bout 9 month's and even though for a while I was still claimin' tha old crew it was false ya feel me? And I know I prolly shouldnta done that cuz shits all wack these days from it. Ya feel me?
if you understand what this means i'll give you a dollar.
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
A couple hours ago at work i put this plastic bucket up on this shelf a couple feet above my head. And I'm not talking rubber maid here, this was a sturdy plastic bucket. And anyway I guess i didn't put it up to swell, because it came falling down when i wasn't looking and bashed me in the fuckin forehead and freakin sliced my face open.
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
Dude, Holy Crap. This weekend was sweet I'm all the way happy. I freakin love the world and everyone in it. Not even emo music can faze me! I love you all! Woah! (like joey lawrence) the theme of this weekend was "Picture Time!!!!!"
Friday, June 6, 2003 10:59 PM
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
How about I don't understand you at all and I want to fucking die? I'm in a hardcore band.
Friday, June 6, 2003 2:05 AM Thursday, June 5, 2003 2:44 PM
Sweet song of the moment: Our Lady Peace - Superman's Dead
Posted By: Tony Z
So when I was walking into work today, Emily Baker pulled up and I was like no way Emily Baker is here and so I went and we talked for a while and it was way sweetness and while we were talking the truck driver that drives the big huge mcdonalds food truck was pulling in. This guy is a mad pervert but he's hella funny and I guess he was like watching me and her talking and that's kinda weird man. But anyway I'm talking like i'm in a gang but that's sweet anyway.
So anyway.. this morning I woke up at 10:30am and took a shower but then when i got out of the shower I turned into a crazy lazy computer nerd and instead of putting clothes on I just sat on my computer completely naked, for like 2 hours ha! Then I put some clothes on and went on a photographing frenzy and you can see a few pictures from that if you scroll down a little bit.
I'm freakin excited hardcore for band practice tomorrow. It sucks that we only get to practice once a week but oh well. Uhh, I tried to be a musician this week and write some songs by myself but I didn't cuz I suck and so we'll just have to work on some songs at practice but oh well. Becki hates coming to band practice she gets bored.
Then on Saturday is the FHS graduation and I'm excited for that for some reason even though it makes me sad because all my friends are graduating and it reminds me of when I graduated last year and oh man I miss high school so much but anyway nevermind or i'll cry.
So anyway, this weekend should be pretty dang sweet and since I have my new camera I'll have a million pictures to put up on Sunday.
Sweet song of the moment: Kind of Like Spitting - Blue Period
Posted By: Tony Z
Today I went on a photographing frenzy.
Thursday, June 5, 2003 1:23 AM Wednesday, June 4, 2003 12:17 AM Tuesday, June 3, 2003 12:48 AM Monday, June 2, 2003 2:25 PM Monday, June 2, 2003 12:11 AM Sunday, June 1, 2003 1:11 PM Sunday, June 1, 2003 1:42 AM
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
i enjoy the stars.
Sweet song of the moment: Metallica - St Anger
Posted By: Tony Z
Whaaaaat? I just checked the tracking status on where my camera is at right now. It says it's ship date is tomorrow so i'm not too worried about it but it's really weird. It says that at 4:30pm today it arrived in Seattle, but the next thing after that says that an hour ago (12:30am) it arrived at a sort facility in MEMPHIS TENNISEE!!!!! what the shit is that about.
I tried to be a musician today and write some music by myself and i sat in the garage and played my guitar for like an hour and a half but i didn't write anything. I suck at being a musician! dammit.
I just want to hang out with emily.
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
Wow so I've been an angry boy for the past few days but I think i'm alright now. I don't know, I didn't really have anything to be mad about but it's just sometimes really small things piss you off you know, and then there's a lot of those really small things and it all adds up. I don't even know. Today Amanda stopped by McDonalds on her way from Seattle up to Canada and it insanely worked out that when she showed up I had just gone on my half so we got to hang out for a while which was total sweetness. Me and her are going to have contests on who's the better photographer once I get my camera, and dammit IM GONNA KICK YOUR ASS AMANDA!!! HAHAHA!!!
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
I hate everyone, I hate you. ALL of you I have everyone. I hate companies. I hate my life and I fuckin hate ducks too!
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
I hope that when I wake up tomorrow I'll have a fucking digital camera because if I don't i'm going to terrorize the town. I didn't pay fucking 20 extra bucks for 2 day shipping so that it could take a fucking week for me to get my god damn camera. How the fuck am I supposed to be a muther fucking artist. IM A FUCKIN ARTIST BITCH.
Ok I feel a little bit better. I bought some magnets from this guy off ebay and paid for them on the 20th but I still haven't got them so I emailed him today and he writes like he's fuckin from some fuckin foreign country or some shit and he sounds like a total fucking moron. I'm so pissed off.
Oh yeah and i won a t shirt off of ebay probably like, hmm. 2 months ago and the mother fucker who I sent a money order to told me that they couldn't cash the money order where they were and then told me to SEND THEM MORE MOENY. i said send me the fucking money order back and i'll send you more money but they never did even though they said they did and i never got the shirt. FUCK PEOPLE WHY ARE YOU ALL SO STUPID. I FUCKIN HATE ALL OF YOU
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
Dammit, I woke up this morning and I think I have a full blown case of SARS now.
Sweet song of the moment: Taking Back Sunday - Cute Without the E
Posted By: Tony Z
Ohh man this weekend was freakin sweet way better then last weekend. It all started on Friday when me and Grant had band practice, then after Kasey got off work him and Becki came over so he could practice with us too. After practice we couldn't think of anything to do, so he was going to dress up in crazy white protective overalls with a facemask and a hair net and goggles on and i was going to dress up in a bear suit and he was going to chase me around downtown Ferndale but we decided to go to McDonalds instead. When we went there we found out that Ryan Patterson was at the park so we went over there and dressed up in our costumes there and chased him. He said that we should all hang out that night and have some fun so we decided that we'd have fun. So later that night we went ice blocking down this huge hill in Bellingham.
Then, we did the ice blocking thing at some other places but it didnt really work and so we decided we'd walk around downtown Ferndale and harass drunk people, it was about 1am by this time. That was fun for about an hour and then we all went to Denny's and got the worst service ever in the history of Denny's. We all went to Ryan's girlfriend Lauren's house and spent the night there at like 4am.
Then when I woke up it was 1pm and I had to be at Emily's house so I left and went to her graduation party. It was fun and I got to see a movie slideshow of a bunch of old pictures of Emily when she was a wee one. Her mom made me close my eyes during the naked ones though. Haha oh and I got some free cookies.
I left there at about 6 and then it was off to the movies with Kara, Ryan, Lauren, Becki and Kasey we saw Bruce Almighty and that is a freakin sweet movie I recommend it. Then it was back to Ferndale, but it was only 11 or so and we were bored so we decided that we'd steal some cardboard from the McDonalds dumpster and trick out my car street racer style with the cardboard and some duct tape, but as we were stealing the cardboard, my parents happened to just be driving up to go to Denny's and it was really wierd and funny and then they invited us to eat with them so we did, but then after we tricked out my car and it was sweet. We drove around town and rolled up to Denny's at about 2am and hung out with some street racer kids who were getting harrassed by the cops. Now i'm home and the weekend is over and i have to work tomorrow damn! And I havne't got my digital camera that I bought, i just want to be a photographer!!!
I would erase the clouds and pull the moon closer for Emily if I could.
