May 2003

Tuesday, May 20, 2003 12:45 AM
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
No buddy, me email hasn't worked for a week and a half, and it's not going to work for another week and a half because Featureprice, the company who I rent my web hosting from, is under review by Florida State Attorneys or something like that. So they have suspended all technical support. Basically what i'm saying is DONT FREAKIN EMAIL ME BECAUSE I"M NOT GOING TO FREAKIN EMAIL YOU BACK.

In other news, I love you alright? Looks as though i'm going down to Sea Town this weekend to play with Amy and Becki and see the Divorce play a free show. I also hope to hang out with my old college buddy Devin. If you read this Devin, come to the F'N show with me on Saturday aight!

Anyway, I now have the urge to get more tattoos.

Monday, May 19, 2003 12:54 PM
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
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FELT LIKE SCREAMING.

Sunday, May 18, 2003 1:48 AM
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
I am going on a photographing frenzy. Well, i'm trying to get 14,400 pictures on my screen saver thats my goal so i'm trying to take lots of pictures with my digital camera but i keep forgetting to it lg it places. Today I saw the freakin Matrix and it was soo freakin sweet holy crap. I love that movie more then any other movie oh man I need to see it a few more times though. I had a headache from thinking too much after it was over. I haven't thought remotely hard about anything since I dropped out of school so this was a first. I gotta keep getting those brain muscles in shape you know. There was one messed up thing about the movie that I wanted to write about on here, too bad I forgot what it was. Damn.
After the movie me and Emily just hung out at her house which was sweet and we had some empanadas and coke from Tito's mom.
So today at the mall grants girlfriend's friend's grandpa happened to be at the mall and while me and grant were in hot topic purchasing hot topic items, he walked up to Lisa and her friend who were sitting on a bench outside the store. Then when we walked out of the store over to the bench, we were introduced to her grandpa, I said hi to him in the friendliest way possible, he looked at both of us, shook his head in complete disgust and disappointment, and started walking away. He later asked her why she hung out with people who look the way we do.
my insides cried.

Friday, May 16, 2003 10:37 AM
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
I took 3 tabs of poison last night and thought i was going to die. I couldn't feel my body and I felt like my heart was going to pound out of my chest. I don't think I slept at all last night, but I can't remember.

Thursday, May 15, 2003 1:20 AM
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
Please donate to the help tony buy a sweet house foundation.

Wednesday, May 14, 2003 12:27 PM
Sweet song of the moment: Limp Bizkit - Stuck (haha it's cool)
Posted By: Tony Z
I just want to take time out of my busy schedule to say hi to my new good friend Lyn. I'm also a rockstar.

Wednesday, May 14, 2003 1:58 AM
Sweet song of the moment: Norma Jean - Memphis Will Be Laid to Waste
Posted By: Tony Z
I like muffins, and I like old keyboards.

I like sweet things and I like analog answering machines.

Monday, May 12, 2003 12:55 PM
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
I love eye shadow and fake nails. i like fairies and wedding dresses.

Sunday, May 11, 2003 2:05 AM
Sweet song of the moment: Yellowcard - October Nights
Posted By: Tony Z
I really like that sweet song of the moment so you should go download it. I think i've gotten about 8 hours of sleep in the past 48 hours. It kind of sucks but I really don't care that much. I really don't care about a lot of things, pretty much 90% of my life, i just don't care about any of it. I went to a stupid show on Friday but it was kind of cool the Temper Tantrums played at it and they were sweet. Also this improv death metal band from off the street came in and played.
Emily almost died this weekend and it upsets me to think about that.
After the show we went out to Deming to Brad's house where I think I want to move into. Everyone who lives there is freakin cool.
Kasey was dead on Friday morning and also I found Weston in Ferndale Friday morning but I brought him back to his native town of Blaine. He has AOL on his fone. Amy Marsh called me tonight she is great. I miss Seattle a lot like a lot and I also miss things like heat and sirens. But it's 3am right now and I've been awake since 8am this morning after only getting about 4 hours of sleep and I really have no idea what I'm typing right now or what I typed before this. I got this weird keyboard from like the 70's and it's my new favorite toy from Carrie. I made my mom a cool mothers day card.
I stared at myself in the mirror for like a half hour i think i'm having an identity crisis.
matt dodson told me he saw travis robinson in the mall here a few months ago. for those of you who dont know him he was my best friend like my whole life up until about 6th grade or something like that when he moved away to somewhere far away and i basically haven't seen him since. apparantly he is an iced out thug now or some shit but i don't care because i miss him too but not in a gay way or anything because some mutherfucker from blaine was spreading some rumors that i was gay. dude holy crap i might as well be on drugs right now because i'm so messed up from not sleeping.
cheer up emo kid ok? i suck as a musician i need to find someting else. dead

Friday, May 9, 2003 1:32 AM
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
I love ballet's. and flowers.

Thursday, May 8, 2003 1:17 AM
Sweet song of the moment: Coheed and Cambria - Hearshot Kid Disaster
Posted By: Tony Z
yes, yes indeed. yes it was my birthday yesterday and yes it was aimee schultes birthday yesterday as well. i think the first person to call and tell me happy birthday was aimee as well. yeah she's a nice girl. i'm curious as to what 'paris in flames' means.
so i'm really going to start getting serious about my music, because it seems like it's the only real thing that i have in life. and i've decided that i hate my job, but i don't want to quit because i hate all other jobs too. so if i can make some money off music that would be prime. but anyway i'm going to start working really hard with writing songs and things of that nature, since we can only have practice as a band once a week, i'm going to have to work damn hard by myself which should prove to be beneficial. i'm a kickass person.
i'm a business man. i like to make things happen you know?

so don't judge me by my appearance. i'm a good guy.

i'm the type of guy who can appreciate zombies. a lot of people tell me they thing i'm wierd but i personally thing i'm a pretty normal person when it all comes down to it. i mean there's a lot of weird people in the world and if you could really compare everyone i'd say i'd be pretty low on the weirdness scale. some people think that if i'm called weird i like it or some shit. like, they think i take it as a compliment. well no, i don't. what is weird about me? is it that i think i'm from space? is it because i have a duck tattooed on me? is it because i think i'm half insane or is it because i dont have a sense of smell and like to keep my room temperature 80 degrees?

I'm half mexican.

Coheed and Cambria are a good band I like them but a lot of their songs sound the same. Versatility is key in my opinion. Badminton. I think I just heard the monster outside my window, but I can't open the blinds because there are ducks all over it. I wonder if people actually read this and find it entertaining. Is it just a bunch of meaningless crap? who knows. Screaming at old ladies is funny, but I feel bad after I do it, because, i mean, it's an old lady. I try to respect my elders. I also try to appreciate police officers. But when they harass you for no fuckin reason, and pull you over for no reason, it's hard to have respect for them. I was raised to believe that the police officers were on our side. When I was little I used to wave at the police cars when they drove by. But now I'm the complete opposite. The police aren't on my side. I try to think of what a police officer has ever done for me. And you know what? Nothing. A police officer has never done anything good for me. Don't judge me by my appearance mr police officer, i'm a good guy.

Well, it looks like the whole moving back to Seattle in June thing isn't going to happen. Kasey's teeth are killing him and he's spending all his money to get them taken out. But that's ok because then i'll get to spend the summer here with merenity. and June has become my target for a new goal.

I had a really nice day today (may 7) it was a sunny day and I hung out at aimee schulte's house with a bunch of people that she had over for her birthday. it was so nice just sitting out in the sun and not doing anything. and then, before i knew it i was in mcdonalds. and my good mood was dead. i hated everything. i hated the smell of the store, i hated looking at ronald mcdonalds face on the cups, i hated everything. and i was in a bad mood for about 3 hours until carrie and kacey came in and then i got in a better mood.

post a response to this post if you read the whole thing
i think i'm emo.

Tuesday, May 6, 2003 11:40 PM
Sweet song of the moment: POD - Sleeping Awake
Posted By: Tony Z
Alright, So I don't think wishing on falling stars works.

But I do think that I am in love with Emily Baker. When I came home on Monday night from work this is what my room looked like:

So on Tuesday it was my birthday. And I spent the first half of the day with xtonom. We went out to lunch where I explained to her what it was like to be a guitar hero. Then after that We went to Fred Meyers where Amber Mason's mom told us about how she has nightmares that Amber is getting raped by a stalker. In Fred Meyer i found a sweet zip hoodie that I wanted to get but it was like 40 bucks so I didn't get it.
Then later I hung out with Emily for the rest of the day. I dyed her hair pink and it was sweet.

Monday, May 5, 2003 12:31 AM
Sweet song of the moment:
Posted By: Tony Z
I am so freakin cool. I don't really know why but I just know that I am. One day I was so bored that I decided to get a tattoo of a duck. That was yesterday, well.. it was on Saturday. Also, Ryan Patterson's band Black Eyes and Neckties is the coolest band in the world and all the people in the mosh pit turn into zombies when they play. I've also decided that I am probably the laziest person in the world. When I came home from Emily's house today I wanted to play my guitar but I was way to lazy to actually hook up the amp so I just went to sleep instead, I had to work at 6 and I woke up at about 5:55. So that sucked but nobody noticed that I was 10 minutes late or they at least didn't care. And then when I got to work Anna the shift manager put me in drive through and in the year and a half that I've worked there I've never done drive through ever and no one told me what to do so even though I was only there to hand out bags I was still like what the shit am I supposed to do. McDonalds people sometimes have really wierd habits with their food and one of mine is that I never put ice in my drinks. So when I was making peoples drinks who were coming through the drive thru it didn't even occur to me to put ice in peoples drinks until one guy got pissed at me and was like can i get some ice or something. I wanted to say, "why do you need ice, it comes out of the tap cold you fuckface." Then I just wanted to get out of there.

Saturday, May 3, 2003 2:14 AM
Sweet song of the moment: 50 Cent - In Da Club
Posted By: Tony Z
First off I want to say how upset I am about the fact that Christina Aguilera is fat. But anyway on with the excitement.
Today we had a sweet band practice, Grant and I picked up Carrie at the FHS and I let the kids know that kids these days are a bunch of hoodlums and I wasn't going to stand for that. I let other people know that judging my by my looks is not a good thing, and that i'm really a nice guy. After band practice Kasey was a bear. Then we went to a party at Shane's house but Shane wasn't even there, he like broke his leg or some crap because he was so excited for a party that he jumped off a house. We went to the new Fred Meyers to try to win a million dollars but instead we just found out that the hottest girls work at the hair cutter place. Then at Haggen tonight like 3 cop cars stopped us because they thought we were playing football in the parking lot. Assholes.

I found out that when Korvan called, it was just Grant. They weren't calling me for an interview anyway. Also, this one time I freakin was in love with a girl.

Friday, May 2, 2003 1:42 AM
Sweet song of the moment: audio
Posted By: Tony Z
Emily was over here today which was nice even though it was only for a half an hour. And while she was here she gave me the look of death. Now, if you're a guy and you've ever gotten the 'look of death' from a girl, you know it's pretty much the scariest thing in the world. Fortunately though she was just playing around.

Now, there are 3 things in the whole world that I love. 1. Emily, 2. Music, 3. Seattle. But, however, there are a lot of things I hate. I hate dress codes. I hate anorexia. I hate neighbors. I hate working. I hate it when me and Ryan almost die in car accidents. I hate it when people mess with you while you're yawning. And I hate bleeding.

Thursday, May 1, 2003 12:59 AM
Sweet song of the moment: Dashboard Confessional - The Brilliant Dance
Posted By: Tony Z
Alright so, Korvan called me today probably for a job interview but they called at like 10:30, thats so early, so i just looked at the caller id, got hella pissed and then threw the phone. Looks like I'll be staying at McDonalds.

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